This has nothing to do with makeup, so I won't get offended if you don't read this. I just want to share this huge accomplishment in my life.
One year ago today, I smoked my last cigarette...and it was one of the best decisions that I have made so far in my life.
I smoked for almost five years prior, and despite everyone begging me to quit, I didn't. I liked smoking, it made me feel good. There were times where I would smoke a pack a day, and other times where I would have a back-up pack hidden somewhere. I would smoke after waking up, after eating, while driving, when I was bored, when I was hanging out with friends/family, hell, I probably would've smoked in the shower if I could've! Basically, I thought anytime was a good time for a smoke.
I never thought that I could make it this far, and it is a lot easier than I anticipated. I've tried to quit countless times before. I tried to wean myself off of them, nope. Didn't work. I felt as if that made it even worse, like I was teasing myself. I tried to only smoke in social settings--dumb idea. I even had a family member pass away during that time from smoke-related lung cancer, and even that didn't get me to stop. It may seem selfish, but it took a personal health scare for me break the habit.
Those of you that know me personally know that I am a hypochondriac (Howie Mandel is my basically my dad). It may be funny at times, but one year ago, I was in the backyard with Jon (my husband) and Neeko (my dog), smoking a cig. At the time, I had a horrendous cough and some chest pains (see, even with such a bad cough, I still smoked...I just didn't care). So while I was smoking, I decided to do a google search on LUNG CANCER SYMPTOMS. I had two of them (I obviously don't have the disease, it was just a horrible cough. But in the heat of the moment, you don't think about these things). All it took was to envision myself with the disease, and how I could hurt my friends and family. It felt real. I felt like I had lung cancer, and that I was going to die, and lose everything and everyone over a rolled up piece of paper filled with toxic poison. I had never felt so terrified in my life. So with that, I took my brand new pack, decided to quit cold turkey, and I gladly threw it in the garbage.
I never, in my wildest dreams, imagined that I would be this strong. Yes, the first few weeks were hard, as expected. But honestly, it wasn't as difficult as I had imagined. Yes, I had massive cravings. Yes, I got anxious. But you know what? It was way better than feeling convinced that you're going to die. As the weeks and months went by, it got easier. Days and days go by without me even thinking about it. I can watch a movie or tv show with someone smoking and it doesn't bother me--I barely even notice it. I can watch anti-smoking commericals and not feel guilt, shame, or fear and even agree with them.
Here are the benefits and improvements I have noticed since I've quit:
- My hair and clothes actually smell good.
- My nails are no longer yellow.
- My teeth are whiter, and my breathe doesn't smell like an ashtray.
- My skin looks and feels better.
- I have more money in my pocket!
- I no longer have a constant, nagging cough.
- I have more energy, eat better and weigh less than what I did prior to quitting.
- I no longer hide in the corner to smoke.
- My blood circulation and lung function has incrased by more than 50%.
Here are a few more:
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And those are just a few! I read a study that if one quits smoking before the age of 30, that you live just as long as someone that's a non-smoker.
To those of you have been smoke-free for years and years, kudos to you. I look forward to living a long life and being a non-smoker. To those of you who are right behind me, keep it up! You can and will do it. There are lots of ways to get support and resources thanks to the internet. Just know that everyday will get easier and always remember that a little stick is not worth risking your life and a potential slow and painful death. And to those of you that want to quit, do it. You will feel like a brand new, better version of yourself.
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Here is a link to a list of resources that can help you or someone you love quit: http://www.cdc.gov/tobacco
Of course, there are still times that I randomly crave a cigarette. But I have learned to ignore the cravings. I see everything in brand new eyes now. That one cigarette could be your last. IT'S JUST NOT WORTH IT ANYMORE. And remember, it is never too late to quit.
One year. 365 days. Over 5000 cigarettes not smoked, over $1400 saved, and most importantly, I've added years to my life.
I know this was long and some of you may not care, but this is a huge accomplishment for me. I never in a million years thought that I could do this. But I did....and I'm still going :)
Thank you SO much to those of you who have been there for me. Thanks for the love, support and encouragement and thank you for reading. I LOVE YOU ALL!